…and what they’d do to protect their kids.
I know she’ll catch me whenever I fall. But she can’t protect me from the choices I make.
It doesn’t matter, mom, I still love you.
I don’t want to live on this planet anymore.
A part of Steve Jobs’ speech at Stanford went like this:
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it.
I could say that I’ve cheated Death once. I came so close to Death that it would’ve changed my entire perspective on Life. Unfortunately, I was still too young to understand. Maybe I’m still too young now to understand it all.
But Death is still there, whether we understand it or not. We can’t foresee it, but we can be sure that each second that passes brings us ever closer to it. Just thinking about this can have a profound effect on you.
What haveĀ I done?
What do I want to achieve? Have I achieved it?
How do I want to be remembered?
In the past 27-odd years, have I contributed anything for the good of my family/church/friends/community/workplace?
How much time do I have until my fragile body succumbs to the various damages I have done to it throughout my life?
Have I taken good care of my body?
Have I learned anything from all the mistakes I made?
Have I changed to be better?
Have I been kind?
These questions, and a lot more, came storming and conquered my puny mind. I do hope that I can answer those questions honestly, and do something to change my answers if I don’t like it.
I’ve cheated Death once. I don’t think Death likes to be cheated twice, nor will I be able to cheat it again.
Here’s to Death, the single best invention of Life!
Sometimes life sucks. Sometimes you just want to kill yourself and get it over with. Sometimes those who you trust most, those who you hold dear to your heart, turn out to be the ones who betray you. And because they are the ones who make your life seem worthwhile, the cut feels deeper than it actually is.
There maybe people who can calm you down, remind you that everything is not lost. They’re only humans. They are not perfect. But there is one perfect solution.
This is one of the ways it is sung:
It is the prayer of St. Francis.
Make me a channel of your peace:
Where there is hatred, let me bring your love,
Where there is injury, your pardon, Lord,
And where there’s doubt true faith in you.Make me a channel of your peace:
Where there’s despair in life, let me bring hope,
Where there is darkness, only light,
And where there’s sadness, ever joy.O Master, grant that I may never seek
So much to be consoled as to console;
To be understood as to understand,
To be loved, as to love with all my soul!Make me a channel of your peace:
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
In giving of ourselves that we receive,
And in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Humans can’t save you. You can’t even save yourself. But He in who we trust, He will take care of you.
Humans sleep. They eat, they go to work, they ignore, they lie. They do all kinds of bad stuff. But He will always, always be available.
I hope you‘ll find your peace soon.